Day 113 on my journey: An important financial decission to make…

Starting next week I’m going to work an extra hour every day… more money! Nice huh?!

It’s great of course, but with this extra money comes the question of what to do with it. What will most likely happen and I hope it won’t is that the money will go into my husband’s account.

A co-worker told me that I should be stronger in dealing with this with my husband. That the money I make is mine and that I should be getting it and deciding with to do with it, instead of it going into his account. I have tried to talk to my husband about this in the past and he was not willing to listen to me.

Now here is what I want. I know the Universe is listening so I’ll be as specific as possible.

I am willing to “give” my husband 300KD every month and keep the rest. The rest will be about 200KD. It depends on how many hours I really work. Anything can happen.
I want to save some of this money and spend the rest on getting ready to start my own business. I need to learn so much about having a business. I need business- and marketing skills for sure.

At the moment I am just not confident enough I could make it in business. I would really like to have my own way of making money, but I am realistic enough to know that with my current mindset I wouldn’t succeed.

Now this may sound negative. I prefer to call it: Being Real!

First off all I need to really decide on what it is I would like to do. We spend all this money on me getting my graphics and design diploma, so I feel I have to do something with it.

I believe I need coaching. Someone outside myself who can take an objective look at my situation and give me some advice.

So the extra money I would definitely spend on some coaching sessions with Joan Sotkin and/or with Jeanie Marshall. I admire both these women for their hard work and marketing abilities. I could learn a lot from them.

It is time to accept that there is only so much I can do by myself. I really want to do something with my life, instead of just working for someone else.

But like I said I need to get ready… I need to prepare…

Day 105 on my journey: Golden Pool of Abundance…!

I received the link to the guided meditation “Golden Pool of Abundance” by Jeanie Marshall. She didn’t get a notification from Paypal. It’s a good thing I asked. I’m very grateful I got the meditation.

It’s wonderful. I could really imagine splashing around in the pool and putting on new clothes when I got out.

I started reading the “Holographic Universe” again. It’s recommended in the program. I started reading before, but didn’t finish it. This time I understood the whole concept of holography must better. I guess I wasn’t ready before.
This book basically explains how we create our reality and that we are part of a much “bigger” whole. That we are all one.

I love this whole concept, because it makes sense to me (now) and it’s something I can use. It goes deeper than the Law of Attraction.

I already heard about the subconscious not knowing the difference between what we imagine and what “really” happens, but now I know why.

I attracted an amount of money unexpectedly yesterday. I am so grateful. I will definitely be visualizing and jumping into the Golden Pool of Abundance more often.

I’ve also been sending out pink light to people around me and online. It is part of the month 4 exercises. It’s nice to do that. It feels great.

I am truly starting to believe that this program works. What I mean by that is that it’s no longer just theory. It pays to take action!

Day 97 on my journey: Loving meditation!

On this day I attended a TeleMeditation by Jeanie Marshall. Remember her? I have some of her guided meditations on my MP3 player.

The TeleMeditation was meant to energize our goals. I focused on becoming debt free. Jeanie’s voice is really nice and soothing. I could feel the energies flowing through my body and I really hope that now that I’ve done BSFF and this energizing meditation on getting debt free, solutions on how to pay off my debts will present themselves.

I have hope for the future.

Then half way through the day I did another guided meditation by Jeanie on Feeling Good. After I was done I felt energized and I had a great day. This day was a lot better than yesterday. I am so grateful for that.

I am going to purchase the guided TeleMeditation, so I can keep energizing my goals of becoming debt free and prosperous.

I feel like I am surrounded by so many people supporting me on this journey. I cannot have anything else but success!

Day 71 on my journey: Turned disappointment into gratitude…!

On this day I received the information about BSFF from Larry. He must have read my earlier post. I have not been able to read everything yet, but I feel really grateful he send me this new information. I’ve already read about a way to “bypass” your conscious mind. I’ll have to block some time tomorrow to study the material. As soon as I have the money I’ll buy the BSFF DVD. I’m sure that’ll be helpful as well. I’m going to add a link to the BSFF website on the side as well.

So that was one “disappointment” I turned into gratitude.

On this day I again became aware of how this disappointment habit works. Every year for Christmas we get something from our boss. One year I got a nice check. Another year they gave me a gift bag. So I was expected something along those lines.

Well I am now the proud owner of a BIG black bag! That’s it…

At first I have to admit I was disappointed (:-))… but then I remembered what Jeanie said about changing your feelings and I decided to feel grateful. I also remembered that I wanted a black bag. I had been looking around but couldn’t find one.

So I feel grateful for finally getting a quality (looks like it) black bag.

The Universe works in mysterious ways… I just forgot to mention I wanted an average sized bag…:_)

PS: In case you’re reading this Larry thanks again for taking the time to send me the information. I really appreciate

Day 70 on my journey: Emotions are so important!

On this day I listened to Joan’s blog radio talk show with Jeanie Marshall. I mentioned her guided meditations before. They are very nice. I let Jeanie know through Twitter that I really liked the show and her meditations. She later on send me a direct message letting me know that she enjoyed tweeting with me directly… such a nice person.

The thing that I really liked about the show was her advice on dealing with not-good feelings. Instead of calling them bad, she prefers calling them not-good. I agree that not-good sounds a lot better.

The method she recommends is something that anyone could do. Whenever you feel not-good, you ask yourself “How do I want to feel?”. Of course you would rather feel good. Although some people seem to thrive on not feeling good and complaining. I think I used to be like that, until I became aware of it.

The moment I started “listening” to my mind “chatter” I noticed I wasn’t as positive as I used to think. It was an eyeopener for me that day.

Anyway to get back to what Jeanie said. So Joan asked her how do you change your feelings from not-good to good or whatever feeling you’d like to feel, like satisfied or happy. What you can do is plan ahead. That just means that whenever you become aware of being in a certain emotional state you can use something you’ve decided on using when you did feel good to make you feel good again. Like an image in your mind that brings you joy or photographs of beautiful places you’ve been and that made you feel good.

This sounds very logical to me and I’m definitely going to be doing that. I think that it’s even easier for me to do now, because of the clearing of limiting beliefs I’ve been doing with BSFF.

By the way should you want to listen to any of the shows on Joan’s Blog Talk Radio Show, I added a link on the right hand navigation part.

Please let me know what you think of the show…

Day 11 on my journey: I feel so honored!

Larry Nimms (founder of BSFF) commented on one of my pages in this blog. I feel so honored… you are probably thinking, what is the big deal, but I feel like I’ve just met a celebrity…

He has made such a big difference in my life. If you want to know what he wrote please go to the page “About me”. I send him a thank you email.

If you don’t know what BSFF is all about, just go back a few days. I wrote a post about it.

I also found these great guided meditations by Jeanie Marshall. I listened to one to help you balance your energies two times and it works. I really feel better after doing the meditation.

I am very tempted to buy one of her other guided meditations. The one on “The pool of abundance”. It’s only $9.95, but I want to give it a bit more thought. Listen to her other meditations and see what effect they have on me. If they are as good as the balancing of energies I might just buy the one on abundance.

I feel proud of myself for not just buying the mp3. Normally I would, because I have enough money… It’s getting easier to resist wanting to spend all the money. It’s not easy, but it’s not that hard either… If I do buy the mp3 at least I’ve done it after really considering it, instead of just on a whim…

I have been receiving e-mail messages from Joan with tips to keep me on track. It’s just a great program so far… I still have some things to do on the list, but I am not in a hurry…

My cash flow sheet is ok so far. I haven’t noticed any mistakes (yet)…

The journey is going well so far…