Day 95 on my journey: Amazing help!

I have had some amazing help the last few days. First of all my prosperity buddy was very supportive and was able to pay of her debts. I am so happy for her. She is free to use her extra money anyway she pleases.

Another way I received help is by people directing me to notes on Facebook and sending emails about how to create what you want in life. One of the notes was especially helpful. It was about staying “pure” in thought. If you are “pure” in your thoughts you don’t send out mixed signals to the Universe about what it is you want.

The Universe doesn’t judge whatever it is you want to manifest, but if you ask for something and then doubt you’re going to get it, you’re sending mixed messages and you will end up with something that is congruent with your vibration at that time.

This was really helpful to me, because I want to be debt-free, but I have always doubted I would be. I know I will, don’t get me wrong, but I still wondered how in the world I could do it, because my debts are quite high.

Now after doing all this BSFF I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I found a way to start repaying my debts, if only my husband agrees. If he does not I’m sure I’ll find another way. I think what I just did is sending out mixed messages.

So let me rephrase: I have found a way to repay my debts and my husband agrees completely!

It is also really important to make sure you feel the feelings you’ll feel whenever you’ve manifested what you want. It speeds up the process considerably.

I am on my way!

Day 23 on my journey: When will I stop overspending…?

Tomorrow is my daughter’s first birthday. We won’t have a party or anything, but I did want to buy her something. I asked my husband for some money and in my head I calculated about how much I was going to spend on a gift and a cake. I thought that the amount he gave me would be enough… but as usual I spend more than he gave me.

I bought her a really nice, quality toy to learn sounds, etc with, a nice dress and of course a cake, with pink roses.

I am hoping for the day I can have money in my hand and have some left… it’s like I either have just enough or not enough for whatever it is I want to buy. Of course this is what the “Build Your Money Muscles for Financial Strength & Security” is all about. I have to wait till month three to go deeper into these identities.

One of my greatest fears used to be that my husband would want to divorce me and I would be left alone with the care of my children or actually even worse, that he would take my kids. If I would be the only care giver I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to take care of my kids. That I wouldn’t make enough money, but those fears are gone. I do make enough money, but that’s it, just enough.

My greatest fear now is that I won’t be able to pay of all my debts, although to be honest I do feel I will be paying them off. It’s strange because it’s quite a big amount of money and so far I haven’t been making any payments for over three years now, but I just know there will be a solution. I am more than open to whatever the Universe has in store for me. I expect nothing but good.

I still feel great on my journey to debt free prosperous living… eventhough I think I have a long way to go… first thing I would love to do is to break my habit of having just enough. I have to say though that it used to be more of a less than enough habit, so I’ve made some progress already…

I am really proud of myself for how far I’ve come.

I just hope that one day I can help my family out, because they are in the same boat as me… Next month we are going to focus on family of origin, so that’s going to be interesting…

Day 14 on my journey: I don’t feel appreciated…!

I was so tired yesterday night that I went straight to bed, so I am writing about my 14th day on the morning of my 15th day…:-)

So why was I so tired yesterday…? I finally redesigned another site I have. I have been walking around thinking of doing it, but felt I didn’t really know how to, even though I payed a lot of money to learn how to use the Adobe graphical products, like Photoshop, Illustrator and Dreamweaver…

Anyway this is what happened. The institute where I followed my training gave me Adobe Suite CS3. I wanted to install it on my laptop, but the laptop wasn’t fast enough, so I couldn’t. I bought a faster computer and put the Adobe software on there, but then I realized that I didn’t have a license key and no way of reaching the person that gave me the software. So I was very disappointed. I thought I would have to buy a whole new package (over $3,000) to get a key. But then I woke up in the morning thinking, maybe the key is some where on the DVD…

And yep there it was. So now I have this great software on my computer and I just felt inspired to use it. This is after 15 days of installing it. So to make a long story short. I redesigned my website! I still have to put together all the pages, but the template is done and I didn’t need to buy that e-book that I was going to, to do it. I used all these free e-books I downloaded ages ago and what I had learned in class. I took me quite some time, but it was well worth it. Now I know how to do it and I can use that knowledge to do it for other people as well…

When I have the new version of my other site up and running I’ll post the link here, so you can have a look. I hope you’ll let me know what you think of it…:-)

I didn’t just work on my website… I also listened in on a teleclass by Joan Sotkin that was very helpful… I really love listening in…

I was surprised to find that my prosperity buddy was on the call and she got some great advice from Joan. I’ll be listening to it a few more times, because a lot of the issues she has, I also have… so so far we are a great team… we’ll be chatting soon, just need to fix a time and day…

Now why did I use the subject: I don’t feel appreciated? I woke up this morning and that is what came to my mind. I just have so much trouble paying of my debts. I haven’t made a payment in years and it’s not because I don’t have the money. I do, but my husband does not want us to spend it on my debts. He wants to save, save, save…

So I asked myself, why am I allowing this… you’re probably wondering the same thing… well that’s when it hit me… I don’t feel appreciated… I don’t feel loved… especially by my husband… I don’t feel good enough… so something I learned from Joan long ago is that in order to feel loved we go into debt, because the people that give us the money show us they care about us, at least it feels like that energetically and subconsciously…

And I guess on a energetic level I still want to feel I am loved… so I stay in debt… I hope this makes sense to you, because it does to me…

So this is what I am going to do about it… of course I am going to use BSFF to deal with my issue of not feeling appreciated and loved…

I have to go to work this morning, but have the rest of the day of, so no excuses not to sit down and do the treatment…

I will let you know what happened…

I’ve had enough!!!

My journey to debt free prosperous living is starting today. I’m really excited, but I’ve also had enough.

I’ve had enough of:

• having debts
• worrying about money
• not being able to just buy what I want to buy
• not being financially free
• not having any personal savings
• not being able to just go out and see a movie with my friends or kids

This list could go on and on, but I’ll keep it at that.

I’ve come a long way though. My situation used to be worse. I have done quite some soul searching and changed a few of my bad money habits, but I realized that I couldn’t do it alone any more. I needed help, so I joined Joan Sotkin’s program called “Build Your Money Muscles for Financial Strength & Security”.

Today is my first day of 6 months of support on my journey to debt free prosperous living. I foresee that at the end of the 6 months I’ll at least feel more prosperous. I hope to pay off all my debts in these 6 months. With my current mind set that has just not been possible so far, but I am 100% sure I’ll be well on my way at the end of the 6 months…

Joan is such a generous and wonderful person. I know she wants me to succeed and I will. I bought a new computer today and was busy setting it up half of the day. It’s almost 1:00am and I’m still up downloading the material in the program and the software I need to be able to read and listen to all the info.

The program is set up in a way that helps you stay on track and slowly morphs you into someone with better money habits. Every month more info is added, so you are led on a path to debt free prosperous living with the support of Joan, but also with the support of all the other people who join the program every day.

In a few days I’ll join a group of people on the same journey as me, on Facebook. I can’t wait to meet with others so we can help each other adapt to a more prosperous way of living.

This first month I received Joan’s award winning book “Build Your Money Muscles”, a workbook, around 10 audio files, worksheets, links to sites where I can learn more about money management, information about two techniques I can use to get rid of limiting believes and blocks, bonuses… just to much to mention.

Every day I’ll read something, listen to the audio, follow the workbook and just take my time to get used to all the new habits… this is not a get-rich-quick scheme so I have to take my time…

I’m making this blog my homepage so It’ll be easier to remember to write something in my prosperity journal or just ramble on about whatever I feel like sharing.

This is going to be a great journey, I can FEEL IT!!!

It’s my intention to use this blog to keep track of my progress. I have noticed that I am not really the type to write on paper. I prefer doing it online… I love being on the Internet, so I’ll keep my journal here.

You are more than welcome to follow me on my journey…