Day 127 on my journey: What is my purpose in life?

For years now I’ve read about how we create our own reality and I have always known it to be true, but there’s a difference between knowing something and actually experiencing it. You see, my goal in life is to be debt-free and prosperous and as you may know there are some issues blocking me.

This is what has happened in the last few days that is proof to me that I am the “cause” of what it going on in my life.

1. I got a digital camera. I visualized it and I bought it. I haven’t actually got it yet, but it’s on its way.

2. I attracted someone in my life who I believe can be of great help to me. Her name is Brenda Bentley and she’s a hypnotherapist. I listened to an interview Joan did with her and it took away most of the fear I have of hypnosis. I am ready to give hypnosis a try and I feel like Brenda is the ideal person to help me out.

3. I have, for some time now, wanted some changes in my marriage. I wished for my husband to be more affectionate and realized that in order for him to be like that towards me I have to be more affectionate towards myself. So I set the intention of taking better care of myself. I cut my hair and finally found some hair products that don’t dry out my hair and it looks great. And I was right, my husband is more affectionate and I’m very grateful for that.

4. I am still keeping track of my money and it’s going better and better every day.

5. I get an “allowance” every month and this month I got some more.

6. I have learned so much from Joan’s BYMM program, that I feel more secure. I feel like I’ll soon find my true purpose, because becoming debt-free and prosperous is part of my purpose. I have to be “doing” something in order to be debt-free and prosperous. That something should be of service to others.

I bought a blue candle today to start my ritual as suggested in month 5. The reason I choose a blue candle, is first of all because blue is my favorite color, but also because blue is the color of the throat chakra. I am pretty good at writing stuff, because I can take my time and think, but talking does not come that easy to me. I choke up a lot. I need a ritual to open up my throat chakra and allow my words to flow more fluently…

The Universe is on my side. It feels great!

Day 97 on my journey: Loving meditation!

On this day I attended a TeleMeditation by Jeanie Marshall. Remember her? I have some of her guided meditations on my MP3 player.

The TeleMeditation was meant to energize our goals. I focused on becoming debt free. Jeanie’s voice is really nice and soothing. I could feel the energies flowing through my body and I really hope that now that I’ve done BSFF and this energizing meditation on getting debt free, solutions on how to pay off my debts will present themselves.

I have hope for the future.

Then half way through the day I did another guided meditation by Jeanie on Feeling Good. After I was done I felt energized and I had a great day. This day was a lot better than yesterday. I am so grateful for that.

I am going to purchase the guided TeleMeditation, so I can keep energizing my goals of becoming debt free and prosperous.

I feel like I am surrounded by so many people supporting me on this journey. I cannot have anything else but success!

Day 96 on my journey: Focusing on my goals!

I have been doing my best to “visualize” what it would feel like when I’ve payed off all my debts. So far I can feel relief and an overall good feeling. It is not yet really strong, but any time I think of doing it I focus on those feelings.

So far keeping track of my money is going well. I am still on track. This new software I am using is easy and ok. It’s really simple. When I have started my own business and money starts flowing in, I’ll get Quicken or Quickbooks depending on how things go.

I have added some goals to the list. Besides wanting to take better care of myself, I want to really focus on getting debt free and feeling more prosperous (ofcourse). So far with the program I am doing I feel like I have laid the foundation. I feel so much more confident that I’ll be able to pay off my debts easily and effortlessly.

Woohoo! It just feels great! Tomorrow morning (5 am) I’ll attend a teleseminar by Jeanie Marshall on energizing your goals. I’m looking forward to it.

I’ll let you know how it went.

Day 95 on my journey: Amazing help!

I have had some amazing help the last few days. First of all my prosperity buddy was very supportive and was able to pay of her debts. I am so happy for her. She is free to use her extra money anyway she pleases.

Another way I received help is by people directing me to notes on Facebook and sending emails about how to create what you want in life. One of the notes was especially helpful. It was about staying “pure” in thought. If you are “pure” in your thoughts you don’t send out mixed signals to the Universe about what it is you want.

The Universe doesn’t judge whatever it is you want to manifest, but if you ask for something and then doubt you’re going to get it, you’re sending mixed messages and you will end up with something that is congruent with your vibration at that time.

This was really helpful to me, because I want to be debt-free, but I have always doubted I would be. I know I will, don’t get me wrong, but I still wondered how in the world I could do it, because my debts are quite high.

Now after doing all this BSFF I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I found a way to start repaying my debts, if only my husband agrees. If he does not I’m sure I’ll find another way. I think what I just did is sending out mixed messages.

So let me rephrase: I have found a way to repay my debts and my husband agrees completely!

It is also really important to make sure you feel the feelings you’ll feel whenever you’ve manifested what you want. It speeds up the process considerably.

I am on my way!

Day 34 on my journey: My journey continues…!

On this day it was my husband’s 40th birthday. He doesn’t care much about his birthday, so there was no big party or anything.

I used to love celebrating my birthday, but because of my husband and me getting older I don’t really do anything special anymore. I have a really nice friend who is taking me out to dinner or to a saloon for my birthday this year.

That’s something that I’ve noticed a lot in my life. People giving me things. I guess that means that I am generous as well, although I don’t always feel like I am.

Having this belief that you don’t have enough no matter what you do, will kind of make you stingy. On the other hand I am very generous with giving people attention and loving care.

Just more proof that money is just an expression of relationships. I may not have that much money, but I feel less deprived at the moment. I don’t worry as much about how to get debt free. I just know I will…

Day 24 on my journey: What a day this was…!

I am very late writing this post, but I have a good reason. Day 24 on my journey, is a day I will never forget. I learned a lot about myself and I feel great about myself.

I’m just going to give the very short version of what happened and say what I’ve learned and why I feel so great.

So in a nutshell… some crazy guy punctured two of my tires and attacked me. I don’t feel like sharing more, because he is not worth me wasting too much of my energy on.

What I have learned about myself through this ordeal is that I am not as weak as I thought I was. I am actually pretty strong. I also learned that I can trust my intuition. I felt something was about to happen and handled the situation accordantly.

I believe this was a side effect of all the BSFF I’ve been doing lately. A way to test my strength. Day 25 was a bit better, but not much. I’ll write about that in another post.

I felt great about myself, because all through it I was pretty calm. I just knew I was safe and nothing I couldn’t handle would happen to me. I felt like there was a benevolent force near to me protecting me. I just knew…!

All my life I’ve felt like things would always work out. Lately I’m just more aware of how they work out.

Now about my journey to debt free prosperous living… my cashflow sheet is still on track… It’s great to see how much I spend on what. That way I can better assess whether or not I have enough or more than enough… I really want to cultivate the feeling of having more than enough.

By the way don’t worry about me. I am doing great…

Day 23 on my journey: When will I stop overspending…?

Tomorrow is my daughter’s first birthday. We won’t have a party or anything, but I did want to buy her something. I asked my husband for some money and in my head I calculated about how much I was going to spend on a gift and a cake. I thought that the amount he gave me would be enough… but as usual I spend more than he gave me.

I bought her a really nice, quality toy to learn sounds, etc with, a nice dress and of course a cake, with pink roses.

I am hoping for the day I can have money in my hand and have some left… it’s like I either have just enough or not enough for whatever it is I want to buy. Of course this is what the “Build Your Money Muscles for Financial Strength & Security” is all about. I have to wait till month three to go deeper into these identities.

One of my greatest fears used to be that my husband would want to divorce me and I would be left alone with the care of my children or actually even worse, that he would take my kids. If I would be the only care giver I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to take care of my kids. That I wouldn’t make enough money, but those fears are gone. I do make enough money, but that’s it, just enough.

My greatest fear now is that I won’t be able to pay of all my debts, although to be honest I do feel I will be paying them off. It’s strange because it’s quite a big amount of money and so far I haven’t been making any payments for over three years now, but I just know there will be a solution. I am more than open to whatever the Universe has in store for me. I expect nothing but good.

I still feel great on my journey to debt free prosperous living… eventhough I think I have a long way to go… first thing I would love to do is to break my habit of having just enough. I have to say though that it used to be more of a less than enough habit, so I’ve made some progress already…

I am really proud of myself for how far I’ve come.

I just hope that one day I can help my family out, because they are in the same boat as me… Next month we are going to focus on family of origin, so that’s going to be interesting…

Day 6 on my journey: My prosperity buddy

Today I received an email from my prosperity buddy. She told me her story and her goals. I replied and asked her a few questions.

I am not to sure how the buddy system works. I haven’t done it before, so we’ll see what happens. We’ll be chatting every week to keep each other updated on our progress.

I told my prosperity buddy that my ultimate goal is to live a debt free prosperous life. What this means to me is that I can go to sleep at night without worrying about whether or not I can pay my bills, because I know my cash flow and my beliefs are aligned with abundance.

I already learned that being prosperous has nothing to do with money. “Prosperity is an inside job”. Joan Sotkin wrote a book on that. When you believe that what you have is more than enough and you’re grateful for everything you already have, you will attract more into your life to feel grateful for and hence live a prosperous life.

At the moment I have quite a high amount of debt. I don’t really know how I am going to pay it all back, but I just feel that I will. Whereas before, I thought I would never get rid of my debts.

There are a lot of people out there who seem to be willing to help you make money. The famous Get-Rich_Quick schemes or should I say scams? There is no such thing as getting rich quick. At least not for the majority of people.

As long as you are in a certain mindset of either not enough or just enough it doesn’t matter how much you make it will either never be enough or it will be just enough. With the help of Joan during this “Build Your Money Muscles for Financial Strength & Security” I am learning to transform my mindset of borderline just enough into more than enough. That is the only way I can ever start my debt free prosperous living…

I am looking forward to interacting with my prosperity buddy. It seems that we share interests, so that makes my journey even more enjoyable…