Another day on my journey: I’m back!

Oh my God, it’s been ages since I wrote something on this blog. So much has happened and I will tell you about it, but I’m hoping I can keep writing, because it helps.

Now for an update. Believe it or not my husband and I are still together and our relationship hasn’t been better. I still get my own salary in my own account, but we don’t share the bills. I pay all of them. Now that looks like a bad thing, but I can afford it and at least the bills get paid. As I am still on my journey the next step is to get to a situation where I can start paying off my debts. At the moment I am not and I know I should, but it will take some adjustments on my side and I am taking it slow so the changes will last.

Now the reason I can afford the bills is because I have a new job. The only thing I am having trouble with at the moment is accepting the fact that I have this job and that it will last. I did not get off to a good start. The job is very demanding and so much different to what I’m used to. My boss has made some remarks about me being slow and not moving around enough. Well I am doing the best I can and if this job was meant to last it will, if not it won’t. I’m open to anything. It’s so liberating to write this down. I really feel that as long as I am doing my best that’s all I can do. If my best is not good enough, so be it.

I had my first call with Joan. I finally was able to get the money together to afford calling her. It was a great call. I have a recording. She really gave me some great exercises and insights into what could be going on with me. It seems I’m suppressing a lot of anger and I think fear as well. She told me to use my journal and just scribble things in it. I did it and it felt great. I’m also expressing emotion by making sounds. It really helps. It’s amazing.

So in short, I’ve made a lot of progress on my journey. I’m making more money, did I tell you I have a new car? Well not new, second hand, but great. Fuel efficient, small… I save so much money on gas, it’s the best. Especially since the new job is closer to the house.

Oh I have two jobs, so the potential of making even more money. Life is ok at the moment. I’m keeping, keeping on…

Day 10 on my journey: Am I financially blind?

I have been keeping track of my cash flow for about a week now and I noticed something strange. I had more money in my purse than I did in the Excel sheet I am using to keep track of my revenues and expenses. I was like: “What happened?” I thought I was doing really well, recording everything I received and spent.

I guess I must have made a mistake when entering one or maybe more of the amounts. I checked all my formulas, but unfortunately I got rid of the receipts I recorded, so I couldn’t check them.

So I have decided that I am going to be extra careful when I enter my data and occasionally count my money… Like I said before money loves to be counted, so at least I’ll be doing it a favor and hopefully it will do the same for me in return…:-)

Anyway I just adjusted the balance and made a note in my sheet. Keeping track is not as easy as it seems. I am usually really accurate when it comes to entering numbers, because I used to work as an auditor and had to use Excel for some of my reports for management…

I am just confused and wonder whether I am financially blind?!! Instead of just being vague about my money… I just totally don’t see where it’s going. The only good thing I guess is that I have more in my pocket than I think I do… somehow I think I spend more than I actually do…

I should give myself more credit for the way I spend money I guess… or you don’t agree?!

Day 5 on my journey: First contact with my prosperity buddy…

I received a message from my hopefully future prosperity buddy. We now need to decide on how we want to do this. From what I understand we are supposed to support each other, on this journey, in reaching our goals.

We had a teleclass today that was very helpful. It’s great to listen to other people and know that I am not alone. So many people, especially in this time of economic crisis, are going through some fear issues. I can’t really relate much to the fear of loosing money, because I am outside of the US and here in the Middle East I have not noticed much of the economic trouble. Although I have noticed that some of the prizes for groceries have gone up.

I am on a budget and it’s not been easy to stay on budget lately, but somehow I am always able to get what we need. So I am very grateful for that.

I didn’t spend that much money today. I bought some gas, that’s the third time this week. My car is drinking the fuel… I do a lot of driving and so does my husband. He has his own car, but sometimes drives mine, because it’s in better condition. I love my car. It’s one of the miracles I manifested.

Anyway now that I am keeping track of my cash flow I know that I’ve been to the gas station three times already this week. Normally I would have no clue. Now at least at the end of the month I can see how much I spend on gas and include that in my budget. I can let my husband know, so he can give me the money upfront instead of every time I need gas. It’ll be good for him to know as well how much money we spend of gas and other stuff for that matter…

Day 2 on my journey: I’m off to a great start…

Like I said yesterday I was going to start keeping track of my cash flow and I did. I set up my excel sheet (using OpenOffice by the way) and I’ve recorded my spending for yesterday and today. It feels good. It makes me feel more in control of my money. It really feels great to see how much I have left and where some of it went.

Before I would have a vague idea of what I’d done with my money.

Another thing that was suggested is to get a prosperity buddy. Someone to encourage and who encourages you.

I found a buddy through the group on facebook! And I think it was meant to be, because I had been reading her posts and kind of felt like we would make a good team. So I got a response from her to my general buddy request and send her a friend request. Let’s see how it all works out. I really hope we get along great together and that we’ll be able to help each other succeed.

I’m about to go and listen to some more of the audio and do some reading…

So the journey continues tomorrow…