On this day I listened to Joan blogtalkradio show again. I signed up for Gina’s Mental Mastery mini course. It’s a seven day course to learn how to set goals and achieve them (in a nutshell).
So I started writing down what I would like my life to look like. I noticed that I wrote down a lot of feeling goals. Of course I desire to live a debt free prosperous life. According to Gina I don’t have to worry about how my goals will be reached, the Universe takes care of that.
I feel like I’m really close to the next level. And after listening to the answers Joan and Gina gave to my questions I realize that what has been holding me back all this time is me or better said the identity factor.
I am so used to being at this level that it’s not easy to move out of that. I guess all I can do is do something every day to change just a little.
I listened to the BSFF treatment for month 3 again and I listened to an audio I bought some time ago by Joan about aloneness. I am definitely expressing aloneness through my money.
I have connected to some other people on Facebook and I do have some female friends here in Kuwait, but I don’t feel like I can be me with them. Although there’s one who seems interested in the things I am interested in, but we don’t get to talk much. She offered to start a book club, but I don’t know how serious she is about that. I guess I’ll have to find out.
When it comes to aloneness I can say that I wish I knew why I prefer being alone. Joan spoke about being afraid of being left alone, and sometimes I can see that in myself, but there’s times when I don’t.
I like being by myself. Ever since I was a little girl I’d be in my room studying, reading books and felt fine. Although I did want to play with others, I always felt left out.
It doesn’t really matter where this wanting to be alone comes from I want to get rid of it. I’d like to be able to make friends and meet people I can really relate to. Who’ll support me and make me feel loved and appreciated.
