I had another flat tire this morning. Exactly two weeks ago on my daughter’s first birthday some crazy guy puctured two of my tires and this morning a Kuwaiti lady tried to squeeze me of the road and in the process I got a flat left front tire.
I can’t remember how many times now I have had to change tires.
Now, I once read this book called:”The body is the barometer of the soul” by Annette Noontil. The book was okay, but a bit hard to understand for me. One of the things that stuck with me is the fact that she not only writes about ailments being a reflection of your inner world, but that the condition of you car does the same.
So I looked up what flat tires mean and this is what it says:
Tires-Flat
Left front:
A fear has stopped you being in charge of your Spiritual direction.
And since I also had a flat right rear tire (the guy punctured that one before) this is what it says:
Right rear:
Not putting any enthusiasm into your Physical direction because you are not wanting to do it.
I’m sorry but I have trouble understanding what it says, probably because these are my problems and I am not ready to “see” them yet.
The one about the Physical direction I kind of get. I should be exercising, but I am not. I have been wanting to do yoga, but just haven’t. So I guess it’s right, I don’t want to.
The one about the Spiritual direction might be about the fact that I want to meditate, but just can’t seem to get into a rythm. I do remember being afraid of the “spiritual” world, as in ghosts and spirits… watching “Charmed” doesn’t help…:-)
I’ve had a few experiences of finding “myself” “out of my body”. These experiences taught me that there is more to life than the physical, but I just cannot get a grip on where I want to go in life.
Of course I want to get debt free and have a prosperous life, but what for? What am I doing with my life?
I really feel “held back” from “being me”. My husband doesn’t support my personal development. He says he believes in God, but doesn’t really “do” anything with it. He seems to believe that the only way he can make money is by working hard and that there is not enough, so he needs to save as much as he can. I guess he is at the opposite side. I overspend because I feel there is not enough, to sustain that feeling and for him he will never feel like he has enough, no matter how much we have in savings.
I only have people online that are kind of like minded. I guess, bottom line, I feel alone.
As I am writing this, I realize why I am not yet debt free. Even after all the networking I have “tried” to do I still feel alone.
I once heard during a meditation session I really “tried”, that I had to be patient. How much longer do I have to wait?
Every time I am about to make a big leap forward I get like this, so I hope this is another introduction into a “better” me…
Help me keep my fingers crossed!
I just realized that I am having trouble with my windscreen wipers. They just start wiping without me turning them on and just stop when they want to.
I looked up “windscreen wipers” in the book and this is what it says:
“Not being able to see what direction you need to go.”
Right on!!! The Universe is trying to tell me something!!!
